Innocence.

When people look into your eyes, they see pure innocence. Your eyes sparkle and you like to flaunt them, and often use them to manipulate people. You're a kind-hearted and intellectual person that loves being loved and getting attention, but others don't see that you can sometimes be defensive and aggressive when you don't get your way. You're really not as innocent as some people think!

P.I.K.U.N

Ya Allah..

kenapa aku sangat pelupa???

sering lupa pin sendiri...

sering lupa password sendiri..

ya allahhh...

untung laptop dan hape bs menyimpan password..

bantu 9i ya allah...9i cape ngurus pin atm di bank terus2an..

:(

Awal dibandung..

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Ini statusnya waktu dy baru-baru awal dibandung..
9i nangis liad ini...
dulu, 9i masih diinget ma dy...
9i inget x. wkt baca status dy yg ini, 9i lgsg senyum2...lgsg sujud syukur...
dy nyebut Dy kangen 9i...
bener2 kangen saat2 itu...
T_T

kata2 dori bener... seandenya org yg dimaksud ngerti...

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Accidentally Remember.. ^^

First,,

Yap.. tiba tiba 9i teringat dengan percakapan 9i dan mama  avn kemarin. 

waktu itu tante Hanum cerita kalo dy itu jarang mau nelpon avn. dy ga mau ngomong ma avn. biar aja papa sama icat yg sering nelpon. 

"Soalnya tante takut, klo sering ditelpon jadi semakin sering teringat-ingat dy. jadi semakin kepikiran sama dy. nanti ada2 aja yg tante takutkan. takut dy kenapa2.. tik tante larang ini itu. bagus tante biarkan aja lagi. tante lepaskan betul. biar ndak kepikiran".

Salut 9i ma mama avn. seandainya 9i bisa kaya gitu. mungkin 9i ma avn jarang berantem jadinya..

Lindungi alvent disana ya Allah..

:(

The second one,

Pas papa avn baru pulang. 9i salamin papanya. 

papanya ngomong gini "Pa kabar 9i? sehat 9i?"

anggi "Sehat om, om sehat?"

papa, "Sehat.. Eia, gimana alvent? sehat-sehat aja dia?"

anggi, "Wah..alvent sehat om..."

Kesan yg 9i tangkap, papa avn percaya kalo 9i ma avn selalu kontek2an...

Banyak hal yg udh kami bicarain selama dirumah avn. mulai dari hobi papa vn, cemeeh-cemeeh papa vn, cerita mama vn, cerita om tito ttg keluarga oom itu termasuk orang tua nya. cerita keluarga besar tante hanum. makan pangsit, kebiasaan-kebiasaan org dirumah avn. Sifat-sifat tiap anak2 oom tante. hobi papa avn yg suka ntn bola, cerita tentang pekerjaan, cerita tentang bahasa inggris, cerita tentang rokok.(yang pada akhirnya papa avn jd ga mau ngerokok selama ada anggi. mpe bilang gini, "Om jadi segan pula merokok ada anggi disini. Sumpah. Biasanya om bantai aja merokok siapapun tamunya." dan 9i ketawa, "haha... brati besok-besok 9i harus rajin kesini yah om, biar om berhenti merokok nya..."). pokonya banyak ceritanya...

Ada beberapa hal yg 9i tangkap dr cerita-cerita om Tito. Dy berharap x avn bisa wisuda tahun depan. Dan cepat cari kerja. Mama avn juga sempet ngomong klo dy pgn avn jd PNS aja. Hmm.. 9i terdiam dengernya. 9i teringat papa. Papa emg ga pernah minta 9i cepet2 wisuda. 9i selalu blg ma papa "9i aja belum tentu lulus pa. 9i kan ga rajin.Beda ma temen2 9i yg lain. Mereka rajin semua."

Semoga avn bisa mengabulkan harapan papanya... Bantu alvent ya Allah.. Amin.

Yang pasti, orang tua alvent sangat bangga dan sayang sama alvent. Alvent anak yg paling disayang diantara yg lain. (Alvent juga yg paling 9i sayang lho om tanteee.. hehehe :p)

Mama 9i juga sayang x ma avn. Mama suka cerita ttg status-status FB alvent. kadang ada yg lucu, tar mama ketawa-ketawa dibuatnya. 9i senang liad mama ketawa gitu...

Ga terasa udh jam 8 malam aja 9i disana. padahal masi banyak yg mw diceritain ma papa vn (dari gaya2 oom itu siy.. :) ) dan waktu 9i permisi pulang, papa vn ma mama vn yg nganterin 9i mpe mobil. (hadeeeeeeeeeeeeeeuuuhhhh... jadi malu sayaaaa.... om tante bae banged.. *hug*)

Om tante... makasi yah buat hari selasa kmrn...

:)

sayang om tante... xoxo ^^

Dear Dori..

Its been 2 days after Dori's cemetery...
So sad actually...
i dont know him well, not too close, ya, he is just my acquaintances..
and maybe he have no means for me...
but, he was my boyfriend's bud..
someone i loved was his best bud...

Alvent feels lost..
i know he shocked alot when i told him those news.
he first thought me just gave him a joke.
but im sure, i wasnt lying hun...

he said he was sad. we've talked alot on a phone call. hour to hours had left...
i talk with you just incase u were not lying in a sorrow honey.
i dont wanna see u sad...
but you know what hun, deep inside my heart, i know u feel lost right now.
and you still sad...
i've cried, to see u like this...

my tears run down after i realize this...
i cant let u like this honey...
but, what should i do then??


i love you alvent,
and i realize it...



Dear dori.
Im not a phsycologist.
we were not close each other, remember?
but you know what?
now i feel like we were a best friend...
thanks for coming in our life.
u bring alot of kindness.
u were such a clever-perfect-kind person i know...
it was my pleasure to know you...
hope you just rest in peace peacefully there.
Allah loves you dori...

found this.. missing this.. dont wanna lose it.. sweetest memory.. ^^

accidentally i've got this pic...
then...
I TOTALLY MISSING THIS MOMENTS!!!!
:(

TO HELP and BEING HELPED

Iam a nurse..
a student of nursing actually..

not all people can survive by living alone.
people need each other..
them, who weak and powerless, need us..
by facing this reality, i always try to face any trouble like a MIRROR. what if it happend to me...

but im not a hero..

the more i stay at RSUD, the more i know, i see, i consider that there are still alot of unlucky people in this world...

thus, i hate all cheaterss...
live and life are not fair somehow,....

yang paling indah...

cintaku bukanlah cinta biasa..
jika kamu yang memilikii...
dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku...

:)

lirik lagu paling manis dan indah yg pernah aku dengar...

yang terberat, yang terakhir

sampai juga dipenghujung praktek profesi.
di gerbong terakhir, gerbong MANAJEMEN..

but, this part is the hardest one..
im not sure i can pass it on..
doin alot of thing at the same time..
HARD TO DO...

i dont have any capability...
:(

selama kuliah 9i ga pernah belajar sebenernya..
this is why i feel so complicated...

God, please help me...
cuma gerbong ini aja ya Allah...
tolong 9i...
9i takut...
bener2 takut...

after took a nap..

td siang ketiduran wkt pulang dinas..
9i mimpiin alvent...
indah banged...
ga sadar 9i sms dy...


10 menit kemudian 9i baru bener2 bangun..
dan SADAR...
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...
dudul....
gini nih..klo setengah nyawa...

confusing..

idk what to do then...

all i can do is nothing..

just running in under pressure..

i never been this DOWN..

i just dont wanna meet someone else..

dont wanna meet who ever...

just wanna live alone...

FINALLY

finally we broke up!

that was a hard decision honestly..
but u know what?
i feel so sad when i know that u didnt think that i've known anything about u, despite its only a cought...
u're just never know..

what u know is ME didnt know anything about u..

sadar... *utk yg kesekian kali

sedih lagi...

i didnt mean to compare him with me.
all i did do and done are all for him..
i always appreciate him..
ALWAYS LET HE KNOWS what ever i do...

hmmm...

i saw all of his video on his FB..
at first, i didnt care anything..
but then, i've got shocked...
he TAG those video for his LOVELY FRIEND... DEVI, MELISA, WENING...
and there was NO me...

i was just smiling...

HE DIDNT WANT ME TO SEE IT...


actually it was just a simple thing.
but.,,,
i hate to know that he prefer THEM than I AM...

it dissappoint me somehow...
and it hurts me along....
:(



thanks for that ignore...
hope you will be happy with your lovely friend...
i dont wanna care about you and your girls at all...

u've stabbed my heart.and its bleeding again...
thanks alot...