God,I need u..

Sometimes im sick of thiz life.
Someh0w, i am not a perfect one...

I always thinking aBout that. Just th0ught How to maintain a relationship-ness..

I got alot of clue b0ut thiz..but i did n0t do it either..

i kn0w that i supp0se to be understand than being a h8 temper pers0n.. Patiently.. N0t to judge s0mething with0ut taking his reas0ns..

but I just backed it up in my mind..
I forgot. Til this st0ry happen to me..

He disapp0inted me..
He lied to me..
He ign0red me just becAuse that girl..

s0 i cried.. I cried.. I felt so sad. Down on my knee. I trust him but he let me d0wn..
That time i t0tally hate him and that dumb girl. But depth (not deep) im still dev0ting him, affraid to lose..
Yea i really really do..

I need reason.. Not excuses...

c0uldnt understand why he c0uld get cl0ser wit an aquaintances???
What did it mean??